by Khalisa Rae
Today I left a space,
So white bodies could inhabit more comfortably. I got out of my seat so white family could sit in my place. Today I accommodated a white body. No, thank you.
I am often accommodating.
Today, a white family stood behind me. Pressed against my back. I was expected to leave, never asked. Should have planted my black body. Instead, my black body was sorry.
Today, I was an apology. I apologize for my presence, and no one says thank you. I apologize for my presence often. I get cut off. I end up apologizing. I am pushed past, walked in front of. I say, Sorry. Excuse me. No response.
Sometimes, I go to white spaces, plant myself,
just because I know I am not welcome there.